Again. This Time, With Feeling!

I would rather feel than not feel. 

I would rather know

Every.

Single. 

Pain.

There is. Everything under the sun and moon and stars.

Every hurt, every sorrow, every fear, every anger that exists, than to feel nothing at all.

Every soul crushing moment in life.

But also,

Every joy, every love, every triumph, every good thing to be found in this world, in us.

Every heavenly ascension in our soul's journey.

I would rather feel it all than nothing. Some people are happy with nothing.

Not me, though. I understand that I have to experience the bad with the good, to be a more fully formed human being. That I have to embrace pain and not only seek what's pleasurable. I appreciate the universal dynamic of good vs evil, light vs dark, yin vs yang. 

Because it's all inside me. It resides there, waiting for me to learn from it, grow from it, integrate it.

We cannot stand in the sun without manifesting our own shadow. 

Both are worthy of our attention. Necessary in our path towards becoming real boys and girls.

I would rather feel it all than to be an empty, smiling thing that feels nothing.

It's my gift. My strength. 

I wish it could be everyone's.